Excerpt

The scene is late night in the Childrens Ward of Cornell University Hospital. A young boy is lying in bed moaning, clasping his head with his two chubby hands. That boy is my son, David.

Sitting on his bed, I realize nothing as serious as this has ever happened to our family. But yesterday everything changed!

The unexpected vomiting, his walking into the wall, and the crossing of his right eye caused me to call my physician. Years earlier, that physician had delivered David at home with all check-ups reading normal.

An inward turned eye or lazy eye is not uncommon for children under the age of 5, she advised. But vomiting and headaches mean something more serious. Get him to Jersey Shore emergency room and request an ex-ray. Ill call ahead!

While driving to the hospital forty miles away, I began to hear a message, words from deep inside, CAT scan! David! Brain Tumor! My heart began to ache as I raced up the road.

The message repeated, CAT scan! Then as if knowing just what a mother needs, these heart-softening words followed, He will be all right, this is his plan. The message ended with Make a difference!

The word PLAN was right for me since I taught Personal Idea Development, a class on how to take an idea into a project and nurture it to completion. David, his siblings and many local children were learning this in my daycare.

Shortly after arriving at the hospital and being assured that he would be all right, I requested a CAT scan. The staff disagreed but I refused to leave without a CAT scan, because of the inner message. The phrase, make a difference, ran through my mind.

An hour or so later I was in a conference room facing numerous doctors seated in a semi-circle.

The topic? Why had I requested a CAT scan?

I answered, My inner listening, my intuition! You found something, right? I saw the scanning results, which revealed a brain tumor.

That is when I shared my parents teaching me about Special Intuition. According to my parents, I could recognize it by messages accompanied with warm inner feelings. These messages always keep us safe when listened to and followed.

David needed to get to Cornell University Hospital as quickly as possible. He was taken by ambulance to an awaiting staff. Meanwhile, I drove home and made arrangements for my childrens care, packed some items for overnight, and left with my husband, Jim, for New York.

We arrived in New York uncertain of the next steps. Jim went to fill out paperwork while I was escorted to Davids room. David squealed in delight seeing me again. The IV needle was still in his ankle.

The assigned doctor arrived having studied the scan results and scheduled a radiation treatment the next day around 3:00 p.m. He left saying I think it is very small and caught in time

Time passes and we are in Davids new room. David is quietly looking at the IV in his left hand. Lying there in a pale blue hospital robe, David asks, Mommy, why does my head hurt off and on?

David is only three so I ask him, what does on and off mean, David?

It comes and goes, Mommy, and it hurts so. Oh Mommy,

Suddenly David grabs his head and begins to moan.

A thought shoots through my brain, Contraction! Then I hear the words, labor contraction! Like lightening, the words Time it! shout out of my soul. Scenes of Davids birth and the timing of the contractions flash before me.

More messages! It would be easy to ignore the messages! How easy to distrust any voice from within! How much easier to request a pain medication and put David to sleep!

Yes, how much easier not to trust!

Through personal research I understand how thoughts strengthen or weaken a person. I decide to test the strengthening truthfulness of these messages.

Working with energy I always use a muscle resistance test called Kinesiology. K-testing shows that reliable, (balanced-truthful) readings come from a hydrated, water satisfied, body. I am thirsty! So before testing, I fill a glass with water several times and drink it all. Next, I make a positive statement in the present tense, I am to time these contractions.

Being right handed, I bend and stiffen my right arm. Using two fingers from my left hand, I push down on my right wrist and suddenly release my wrist. My right arm springs up toward my right shoulder. A healthy bounce is there! A weak or missing bounce means not to follow the messages. The statement is not weakening me. The message to time it, is true and right.

Now that I have my guide, I will trust and time the headaches. Like cause and effect I feel a rush of warmth fill my body and peace is there. I am making a difference for David and helping him with his plan.

David, I say, cry softly when it begins to hurt, and cry louder as it hurts. Keep crying until it goes away. Then Mommy will know what to do. David nods and gives me a weak smile. Another headache is starting. As Davids moaning increases and then tapers, I recognize a wave pattern. I look for a clock or a stopwatch. There isnt any!

I start counting the seconds from the beginning of the contraction to its peak until it tapers. I count the seconds between onsets of the headaches, as part of the impression was labor contraction. It is important to know how far apart they are! The next five minutes yield three more wave patterns.

I call the night nurse and tell her about timing the contractions and the behavior of the tumor. Her response is a gasp as she runs out of the room. This IS important!