Your father’s real gift to you was a standard. All the years you sat by his side you were learning, exchanging, caring, and loving. He taught you to know what you had to know and respect what must be respected. He was a gruff, tough old bird who treated you like the oldest son. That was the way he loved. He died a happy man and even lost his fear of death. The roughest part for him was that he wished you had been a boy. Your father was smart and wonderful. Between the two of you there was an authentic relationship. It will take you time to grasp all of this.”
“I know I’m repeating myself, Rose, what has this piece in my life been all about?”
“Don’t worry about having to repeat yourself because you have to remove many layers of abuse in order to acquire the skills to go on in life.
“This piece has been about the reconciliation with your father and the rightful status within the family. You come from victimization. Your mother taught your sister and brother to victimize. Their responsibility was to put the brakes on it and think of you as a sister who is a human being; but they didn’t do it.
“You were confined with your father to find the authentic self, to show him that you weren’t the garbage everyone said you were. You needed that time with him. You needed to recognize that you were mature, capable, and a contender. Your brother didn’t want to take note of what had changed; that you overrode your father’s personality and in doing so had a conquest that allowed you to reach his soul.
“Your brother and sister never passed it. He wasn’t as tough as he had to be in order to get along with his father and she didn’t care to.
“Your reality was that you had to earn his love and you did. Your father’s feelings altered dramatically. He found out late in life what the prerequisites and standards for love were and took them over with him. That is your achievement. Your father loved a fantasy when it came to your brother. When he had to deal with his son’s reality, he cried. He didn’t know his son.
“You have to fight to protect your mother. It was your father’s wish that you do. She can’t be left to a son who finds her boring and inconsequential, and who dismisses her needs and desires. She can’t be left to a daughter who openly admitted to being disgusted with her appearance and table manners. Past history shows they don’t care.
“Pluto was only beginning to move 20 days after it went direct. It’s a slow dense planet that sits over and on us, and hits a collective subconscious level for the purpose of giving us an opportunity to purge that which must be faced, gotten rid of, and released because it all died. As we review, we are able, in a mature state, to look at our fantasies and distinguish them from dreams we hope to fulfill. There is no penetration of people if people don’t have the capability to understand who and what we are. You come from your father’s line. Your brother and sister are foreigners in your land. That is why you stand alone. They dumped you in the middle of the sea. You and your father belong in one tree. Your sister, brother, and mother belong in another. The litigation is debris.
“When your mother passes there will be one surge and one ending, which you will be ready to face. Pluto these last two weeks has tried to let us know that we gave it our very best, that there is no altering, and no going back. You are dealing with a mother who in past lives broke you. All her miseries were dumped on you. The banner and the poison were passed to your brother. You are going through a death and must let this family go. The litigation is a catalyst.
“The card of Justice crossed over by the Hangman shows up. In order to end this Karma you must see this action through. The tower shows that your brother thinks his rage is equal to strength and power. He thinks it intimidates, scares, and turns a lie into a truth. It’s making an ass out of him.
“Fear is surfacing when there is no mobility. His case is rotting and yours is frozen. While you’re waiting, there is a purging process. There is a variable out there while Pluto is doing its thing.
“Keep in mind this whole situation has to do with your father’s passing and the fact that your brother is shocked that he is not the patriarch. He can’t rewrite history.
“There is no way you can undo the damage done by your mother. There is no way to have the family like you. You now must consider yourself as an only child. You are a lone survivor.”
“How come I survived and they didn’t?”
“You worked your back off to gain the love and respect of your father. Your brother and sister will not allow themselves to begin to understand your relationship with him. It is not within them to give you any recognition or credit.
“That which was important to do you did and accomplished. The house signifies the trust your father had in you. When he repeated that you made him the happiest man, in your brother’s presence, it didn’t penetrate because he’s stupid, which explains the ridiculous allegations.
“This family did not stand the test of loving. There was no rocking the boat as long as you were a little kid. As a mature woman you became a pain in the ass to them. The lack of love and caring, their conceit, their anger, and their jealousy were their undoing.”